24 weeks – hospitalized

So right after I made my last post, things have gone downhill. I was rushed to the er last monday because I started having contractions. It’s been a whirlwind but I made it to 24 weeks and still pregnant but

24 weeks – hospitalized

So right after I made my last post, things have gone downhill. I was rushed to the er last monday because I started having contractions. It’s been a whirlwind but I made it to 24 weeks and still pregnant but

23 weeks

23 weeks today. 1 more week left before we hit the milestone of 24 weeks. I’m happy baby doing is good but going through some things in my personal life that is clouding the happiness. Been a little too active

23 weeks

23 weeks today. 1 more week left before we hit the milestone of 24 weeks. I’m happy baby doing is good but going through some things in my personal life that is clouding the happiness. Been a little too active

21 weeks

Still going strong :) Not much going on except for back aching. I’ve also been feeling more of baby and she likes to kick my cervix! I think because of my anterior placenta, I only feel her down low. I

21 weeks

Still going strong :) Not much going on except for back aching. I’ve also been feeling more of baby and she likes to kick my cervix! I think because of my anterior placenta, I only feel her down low. I

20 weeks – I made it!

This is now the farthest I have gone… Up until yesterday, I was so stressed out but then suddenly everything felt different. I feel so much joy and hope and love for this baby and I am so grateful to

20 weeks – I made it!

This is now the farthest I have gone… Up until yesterday, I was so stressed out but then suddenly everything felt different. I feel so much joy and hope and love for this baby and I am so grateful to

P7 Ultrasound 18 weeks 3 days - 1

19 weeks pregnant

I’m approaching the time when I lost my first daughter. I’m pretty stressed and nervous about it but trying my best to keep myself positive and occupied. Tomorrow is the last day of this quarter for school, then I have

P7 Ultrasound 18 weeks 3 days - 1

19 weeks pregnant

I’m approaching the time when I lost my first daughter. I’m pretty stressed and nervous about it but trying my best to keep myself positive and occupied. Tomorrow is the last day of this quarter for school, then I have

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Tales From Long Ago: Being a Burden

There are times when we feel like all we do is just for nothing. That nobody acknowledges anything we accomplish, that everyone only sees our mistakes. We feel as if everything we do, even breathing, makes other people’s lives harder,

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Tales From Long Ago: Being a Burden

There are times when we feel like all we do is just for nothing. That nobody acknowledges anything we accomplish, that everyone only sees our mistakes. We feel as if everything we do, even breathing, makes other people’s lives harder,

I can feel her today!

I’ve been wondering when I would start feeling flutters… but these are more than just flutters! They’re stronger than that. Today, at 18 weeks and 2 days, I can say for sure that I am feeling my little baby girl.

I can feel her today!

I’ve been wondering when I would start feeling flutters… but these are more than just flutters! They’re stronger than that. Today, at 18 weeks and 2 days, I can say for sure that I am feeling my little baby girl.

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Tales From Long Ago: I Should Remember This

I’m not special. Whatever I can or was supposed to do, somebody else will get it done. I am just damaged goods. Why should I continue to live and spread unhappiness? I want to stop being a burden to other

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Tales From Long Ago: I Should Remember This

I’m not special. Whatever I can or was supposed to do, somebody else will get it done. I am just damaged goods. Why should I continue to live and spread unhappiness? I want to stop being a burden to other

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Slow Cooker Dry Rub Ribs

These were really awesome ribs! I was debating on whether to broil them after slow cooking but after tasting, it was perfect! pork baby back ribs ~3 tbsp brown sugar 1-1/2 tbsp paprika 1/2 tbsp salt 1/2 tbsp pepper 1 tbsp

slow cooker - dry rub ribs

Slow Cooker Dry Rub Ribs

These were really awesome ribs! I was debating on whether to broil them after slow cooking but after tasting, it was perfect! pork baby back ribs ~3 tbsp brown sugar 1-1/2 tbsp paprika 1/2 tbsp salt 1/2 tbsp pepper 1 tbsp

Tales From Long Ago: Life Isn’t About Finding Yourself

I have always heard phrases and sayings from different people, books, magazines and shows on how to “find yourself.” Try different things, explore your options, and look for the things or activities that complete who you are. We hear songs

Tales From Long Ago: Life Isn’t About Finding Yourself

I have always heard phrases and sayings from different people, books, magazines and shows on how to “find yourself.” Try different things, explore your options, and look for the things or activities that complete who you are. We hear songs

Tales From Long Ago: The Beginnings

I hate being in this dark place. It seems as if nothing matters. I do not even have the desire to be happy but nor do I want to actively do anything to cause my death. I feel like I

Tales From Long Ago: The Beginnings

I hate being in this dark place. It seems as if nothing matters. I do not even have the desire to be happy but nor do I want to actively do anything to cause my death. I feel like I

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Dreams From an Old Blog: Deck of Cards?

I knew there was something wrong. But I didn’t mind, I wanted to be with him. I thought that these things only happened in the movies so I didn’t believe that it was happening to me. Like fulfilling a prophecy,

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Dreams From an Old Blog: Deck of Cards?

I knew there was something wrong. But I didn’t mind, I wanted to be with him. I thought that these things only happened in the movies so I didn’t believe that it was happening to me. Like fulfilling a prophecy,

P7 Ultrasound 17 weeks 3 days

18 weeks 1 day – Last week was scary

Last Saturday when I was about 16 weeks 5 days, my back started hurting and I got really scared because when my back hurt last pregnancy, I went into labor about three days later. I called the on call doctor

P7 Ultrasound 17 weeks 3 days

18 weeks 1 day – Last week was scary

Last Saturday when I was about 16 weeks 5 days, my back started hurting and I got really scared because when my back hurt last pregnancy, I went into labor about three days later. I called the on call doctor

P7 - 16 weeks 3 days Ultrasound - Girl

16 weeks 3 days yesterday

16 weeks 3 days – 152 bpm I went for my weekly appointment with my MFM doc yesterday. So we’re having a girl again. I was so wrong with my guess this time, I thought it was a boy! We

P7 - 16 weeks 3 days Ultrasound - Girl

16 weeks 3 days yesterday

16 weeks 3 days – 152 bpm I went for my weekly appointment with my MFM doc yesterday. So we’re having a girl again. I was so wrong with my guess this time, I thought it was a boy! We

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16 weeks – girl?!

I’ve been having a lot of headaches lately and have been really tired. I’ve been having a half cup of coffee for the headaches and tylenol very sparingly. I only take the tylenol when it’s unbearable. I find that if

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16 weeks – girl?!

I’ve been having a lot of headaches lately and have been really tired. I’ve been having a half cup of coffee for the headaches and tylenol very sparingly. I only take the tylenol when it’s unbearable. I find that if

P7 Ultrasound 14w3d-2

15 weeks today!

Been feeling okay. Still tired. I started my heparin shots about two weeks ago. My sides are full of bruises! Everything is going well with baby. Just checked up on him at 14 weeks and 3 days. Everything looked normal.

P7 Ultrasound 14w3d-2

15 weeks today!

Been feeling okay. Still tired. I started my heparin shots about two weeks ago. My sides are full of bruises! Everything is going well with baby. Just checked up on him at 14 weeks and 3 days. Everything looked normal.

Doing better

I’m doing better today. I had about two panic attacks going through that. Eh, I just pick myself up and try to be better.

Doing better

I’m doing better today. I had about two panic attacks going through that. Eh, I just pick myself up and try to be better.

Pain

It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. I really don’t think I can handle stress at all. I don’t have healthy coping mechanisms when I get to this point. I can be level headed but sometimes I just

Pain

It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. I really don’t think I can handle stress at all. I don’t have healthy coping mechanisms when I get to this point. I can be level headed but sometimes I just

P7 Ultrasound 12w3d Hand

12 weeks 3 days

Very low risk of DS :) As usual, I opted out of the blood test. He was soooooo cute and kept on moving around, gave the ultrasound tech a hard time getting measurements! He also kept on looking at the

P7 Ultrasound 12w3d Hand

12 weeks 3 days

Very low risk of DS :) As usual, I opted out of the blood test. He was soooooo cute and kept on moving around, gave the ultrasound tech a hard time getting measurements! He also kept on looking at the

Results RPL Testing

My doctor’s office called me today and my results are in. I took a test last week for immune and clotting panels. The nurse said that I have a mild clotting disorder but because of my history, they will treat

Results RPL Testing

My doctor’s office called me today and my results are in. I took a test last week for immune and clotting panels. The nurse said that I have a mild clotting disorder but because of my history, they will treat